Jill Sheet's Blog

My Past By: Jill Sheets   Picture source:    https://pxhere.com/en/photo/1351617 How can I celebrate my past?   Like many, I have suffered a lot of pain, situations I did not want to be in, and regrets.   Without my past, I would not have a beautiful daughter, a wonderful husband, and finally, a family that loves me (Karissa, you are also included). A family that is there for me even when I am at my worse, and not wanting to talk. They refuse to give up on me.   There is also my church family that I can turn to. Ones that are willing to talk, give me advice, and even pray for me, which means a lot to me because it is hard to ask for prayers for myself.   How about celebrating the relationships with my friends from a distant past or even the ones that I have met in the last 14 years? Making me laugh or smile. I really do not know where I would have been without all of them. Without God guiding me on my path none of this would have ...

I do not want to be afraid By: Jill Sheets Picture source: :  https://www.rms.com/blog/2019/03/27/european-floods-and-the-relationship-with-the-north-atlantic-oscillation   When I was younger I was afraid of Killer Bees-- Tornadoes, earthquakes, moving waters, snakes in the toilet-- And -- Demons. Some of the fears are still with me today -- Along with new fears Squishing them all into one.  Seeing the fears when I close my eyes. When I have night terrors. Seeing snakes slithering out of the bathroom. Pythons moving up the kitchen cabinets. Water flooding the streets --  Cars and people getting pushed down in the water. Falling down the steps. Choking-- Losing my voice again And not coming back at all. Going blind. So many things. Demons -- Night terrors that fill my dreams almost every night, My first memory of them.  Waking up gasping for air. Losing people I love. Just covering a few. I try to give my fears...